What You Can't Have

 Why is it that you want what you can't have? I have fallen in love with a guy I know I will never have. And, no, I'm not talking about Mario Lopez. But I had a crush on the guy for the longest time. He and I talked about everything. Or at least most everything. He helped me through a lot of hard times and memory farts. Sometimes I feel like I would do anything for him to include taking a bullet for him. And you'll never guess what happened. I lied to him and probably lost all trust I thought I had with him. Given the lie was only a "white" lie to make him jealous but it was a lie nonetheless. This is gonna be a short post cause I want an opinion. What would you do in my situation?